Do you remember that song? *singing, Play that funky music white boy*…Such an upbeat song from the disco era.. Yes. I know. I just severely dated myself…hey, it happens.
I’m in a funk alright but it ain’t funky thats for sure.
I wish I could say I felt as upbeat as that song but lately I am anything but upbeat and honestly, I’m not sure why. If any of you are reading this and you also follow me on YouTube then you may or may not have noticed that I pretty much dropped off the face of the YouTube planet in the last week. Why you ask? I have no idea is my answer. I have suddenly over the last two weeks or so lost my desire for pretty much everything. I’ve been searching myself for answers as to why but they aren’t coming to me either. I’m not in a depression just a kind of “I don’t know what I want” funk. A kind of “I’m really not into this at the moment” funk. It’s not just YouTube. It seems to be with everything I usually enjoy. Such as, reading, crochet. praying etc.
There is a part of me that seems to be changing though and I’m thinking maybe this is why I am not so much wanting to make videos or watch YouTube much anymore. Now what I am about to post is MY feeling only. I realize this is 2015 and all a person has to do is fart the wrong way and someone is offended. Yes I used a fart as a reference. What? You don’t fart? YES you do! I digress. So please try your very best to not be offended.
A lot of the videos I have watched over the last year or so have been what is called for those of you who don’t watch them. haul videos, Dollar Tree Videos, Beauty videos and the majority if not all of these kinds of videos are about people who are just spending money and showing what they bought.. And… spending and spending and spending money and….showing what they bought…..Lately I can’t seem to help my thoughts when I “try” and get through these videos and my mind says , why do these people keep throwing their money away on so much stuff? How much stuff does one person need? What on earth do they do with all that stuff! That person couldn’t possibly wear all that makeup in THREE years…Lately my mind set is “well you might as well just go on the backyard and burn your money for the stuff your’e using it on”…
Now the answers to these questions may be real simple. Maybe these people do have money to burn so for them shopping constantly isn’t a special treat maybe it’s just their every day normal. Maybe some of these people need all these things or just want all these things. Maybe they use all of it, or dress up their friends, family or their animals with it all. The point IS.. none of this is really any of my business what other people do with their money or how much stuff they have. And maybe, I am feeling this way because I have become so conscience of how much money I was wasting on things I didn’t really need instead of saving my money to have an emergency account or for when important occasions come up. Maybe it’s because for myself I realized that money is tight, it’s always been tight my whole life and it will always be tight and it’s high time I learned the value of what little money I do have..
So you see, it’s not the people who make these videos. In fact the people who do are actually some very nice people. It’s not them….It’s ME!.. I am the one who is changing and because of these changes I am finding myself very board and not very patient with these kinds of videos which is why I have a hard time watching if I have been watching at all..
See what I mean about this funk I’m in.. and it’s affecting every area of my life…I wonder.. am I the only one? Anyone else going or have you gone through this? Please share if you’d like. It would be nice to know I’m not alone.